October is coming up and it sure will be my happiest month of every year!
The recently passed Ramadhan was a better one, compared to previous year. It might not be the Prophet’s Ramadhan, but I made some progress that I’m happy & proud of. I really do wish Allah give me the opportunity to experience another Ramadhan next year. (Yes, people! I myself typed the last sentence! You see how much this Ramadhan changed me? Bwahahahaha….)
And since Idul Fitri is still all around, I’d like to say:

Happy Eid Mubarak. Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum.
Also, I humbly ask your forgiveness for the rudeness, lousiness and lack of intellectuality in my writings, for my made-up words, unessential contents, my messy English, and most of all, for making this blog.
Anyone want to buy me the gorgeous cupcakes from Mom’s Kitchen? It’s never too late, you know….
Then, after 11 months of dwelling in the dark world of prostitution, I came clean by filing my resignation. No, I have nobody, not a single company, ready to hijack me. It’s purely for personal reasons, regarding my over-anxiety for the future and tiredness for almost-all-year being emos about my job.
This is not an overnight decision, although some might say some of the best decisions are made without thinking. Well, this one is definitely NOT! You don’t have to know everything I’ve been through, but BELLLIIIEEEVE ME, it IS one hard decision, particularly for me. Even so, I have my entire family & friends on my back and thank God for that. Talking about friends, I recently found some kind of “circle of trust” between my friends in the office, it makes me feel a bit sad to leave my current office. I keep thinking, “Why not from 6 months ago?” But, it’s still something to cherish, not to regret. And I do hope you guys (yes, I’m talking to you!) can find your own happiness in this seem-like-endless future-finding thing.
Well, oh, well. The journey’s not over. This is indeed a new beginning and I gotta get ready! I may think I have gone some serious life, but the cat says:
you think you’ve flown before, but you ain’t left the ground…
Bad things are inevitable, since life sucks as it usually does, but I’m sure that the best is yet to come. Can’t wait!
P.S.
I’ve thought about this a lot. For those of you who would want to buy me presents for my birthday, books will be best. But, if you pick from this list, you’re my bestest!
Api Sejarah by Ahmad Mansur Suryanegara
Dan Brown’s “The Lost Symbol”
Pramoedya Ananta Toer’s “Tetralogi Pulau Buru”, or anything except “Gadis Pantai” & “Larasati”
any books by Haruki Murakami and Chuck Palahniuk (not in Bahasa, please..)
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